Dear Jn,

I think I have to make this right. I know you hate it if I use your real name in here, my personal blog. But this time, just this once. It's the end.

I'd say this with no tears.
Some people can't get over from 3 years of relationship in one day. You can. I can't.
Maybe it wasn't love at the first place, maybe it was just silly feelings. We were kids, anyway.
I was happy, because.. maybe I thought it was all real.
It turned out just like another story.
Maybe I am a bad person. I can't understand myself either. But honestly, I was just being me around you.
Maybe I was so rude that I got mad so easily.
Maybe you are right, we weren't right.
We can't be together. It was quite obvious since the day-1. I've told you, we were kids, we were naive.
I just saw the differences we should have seen at first.

Breaking-up is never easy.
It never is when you think about 'this is the one'.
I finally knew you didn't think about that to me. You never did.
I deal with it.

Now is now.
I know you already have feelings for another girl.
I never think about having a new relationship recently.
But life is about meetings.
And partings.
I don't know if I finally meet someone again and fall in love again.
I just don't have any intention to.

Sad things start happening.
We were close. Soooo close. We talked about many things till dawn.
Now we don't even talk for once a day. Oh, how could people change so fast.
I've missed a lot of details from times we had been through together.
I can't recall those times anymore in a good order.
I admit I start forgetting things. I know you are happy if I can forget about 'us'.
But I don't erase anything about it.

I just don't want you to go that fast.
I just wonder, why can't we just stay and start being friends?
I just wonder, why we stop caring?
I just wonder, would you ever remember me for one second and wonder how am I doing?
I just wonder, why can't we meet somewhere someday and sit down in a coffee shop and talking about life?
But you wouldn't like it, would you?
I'm just a part of your painful past

You can hate me
I can't
You can forget me
I can't
You can leave
I can't


Let's just be happy
You are happy
I am happy
But not together
We are happy in our own way

Let's not make this into a good bye
I will be here, if you'd ever miss me
I will be here, if you'd ever want to talk
I will be here, if you'd ever need anything
We used to know each other so well.
I wish we stay that way forever. As friends.