Happy New Year 2013! No more 2012, no more "end of the world" issues. It shuts people up already. Muahaha!
Oh damn, my school starts in 10 hours. I dunno, am I supposed to be happy? or sad? or mad? or... *sighs*
But this year will be my graduation year. High School will be done and off to university! Easier said than done :/ I have at least 2 months to think about "what department am I gonna get in?" aaaaaand still no answer. Maybe I am too dumb, or I am just.. too lazy... to think about it? Ok I already have two option actually.. or three! International Relation (for God sake I really want to enroll in this department! But.. ). If I can't get into that department.. then maybe Communication. Or the last, Literature.. At least, I hope I could go to university in other city :(
Few times ago, accidentally, I found my old English paper. I guessed it was from the first year, because there I was talking like this :
"Hi, I am Meidinar, 15 years old. I am the student of X-9, SMAN * Malang. (the rest was talking about my feeling to be an International High School's student)."
But, there was a shocking thing I wrote : "Later, after graduation, I want to learn about Criminology in university". What? Did I... lose my mind? Or I was joking? Damn, I can't even remember it was just so damn silly. 5 mins later I thought it was cool. And put Criminology on my list -_-
Time passes by so fast. It was like yesterday, I complained about my white-grey uniform in the front of the mirror because it looked so bad at me. And everyone else tried to ensure me, like.. "It'll be ok", "You look good, you know!", "It might be bad at first, but it'll fit in you after few weeks".. or the meanest else (like Mas Randy -_-) said "You finally realized, that you're not going to be a high school student, didn't you?". I swear, if he was not my senior I would've certainly killed him.
This uniform things are really annoying. When my boyfriend told me about his normal wear in school and I think he meant to tease me :/ Babe, if you read this, I just want you to know : uniform makes you look cooler :p
My relationship this year.. well.. nggg... I dunno. In my previous previous... prevoius posts.. In early 2012, January, I wrote about how happy I was to be with my boyfriend. And few posts lately I was like.. desperate. Honestly, I was in total kaputt! Indeed!! I was thinking about breaking up, so many times. Well, if 2011 was about "getting", 2012 was about "losing". I dunno. Blur. I love him but.. he tried to "kill" me? But I LOVE HIM (no... yea, this time!), and (maybe) HE LOVES ME! So let's pray for the best *nods*
Another marathon endeavor this year :
- I must save money as much as I can. It is important!!! I dont wanna be poo..
- I... should go to travel some places in Indonesia!!! My first visit will be... mmm... I haven't decided any places yet :( and I wish I have companion :/
- I should write more -_-
It sounds like I am not prepared well to my goals this year. No wonder I have a lot of things to think about : school, relationship, myself! So let's just run... run... run... through this year... come on.. run!
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