2011, Moving Forward

First posting in 2012. Well, lil bit confused when I think about "what am I going to write", but still, I gotta write something. :)

I deliberately choose this date because the 19th in every month has always been my most favorite day! Not every month actually, just in the last three months :p And I choose English Language (though I know I'm really sucks on it) instead of Bahasa Indonesia, because I wanna try. Yea try! No harm in trying, huh? :p


2011 had become the most miserable year but also uh-may-zing too. Yea, we could never feel happy without being pathetic first, rite? So I thought it is fair. I'm OK with some shitty things, or being an outcast, but I get the reward in behind. I didn't blame anyone, anyway O:-)


I've got a pain, and a happiness in that year :)



Pain, because in early of 2011, I was an outcast. In my own class. I thought "how pathetic it was!" but I can't do nothing at that time. So I let it passed me by, and kept moving on. I didn't know the reason why my friends stayed away from me. Sometimes I heard them talking about me. And you can guess, a topic which people likes to talk about is "bad sides of someone" *grin*. In the end, I left 'em behind. I don't wanna waste my time just to make people understand about me. I realized, I'm not a Boss nor Queen.


And the middle of the year, was the most stressful time I ever felt in my 16 years life. I was a first grader of High School who was going to be a second grader. It meant that I gotta pick department which I will take and I will learn for the next two years. I had only three choices : Natural Science, Social Science, or Language. Damn! I took Language department after all, and I know it made my mom mad on me. Mom, I'm sorry, but It's my future.


Then, after a long enough holiday I came back to school and found out that I only have 15 classmates. Once again, fifteen. Uh, 2 boys and 14 girls. I was shock, but there was a theory came in my mind :

- 2 girls + 14 boys = TROUBLE
- 2 boys + 14 girls = CHALLENGE


And yea, I prefer choose CHALLENGE instead of TROUBLE. After a semester passed by, everything is fine. They're really nice and kind. So lovely. 16 of us are "family" until now, and I hope forever. :)

And in the (almost) end of the year, I got a "gift" from God. It was October when I met my first boyfriend. I don't remember the right date, but I believe it was October 19 when we decided to have a relationship. He is the first boy who adores an ogre (read : me). But unfotunalely, He lives hundreds or even thousand miles and 5 hours away from me. It's a sad part, remembering he's my first so he gotta be near me. But who knows about nature conspiracy? God made us meet each other and fate bring us love. Okay, it's too much for a 16 years old girl. -_-


But thanks for technology. And thanks for social network. Indonesia-Finland can be so close only with a laptop and an internet connection. So, you can guess again, that our dating schedule depends on time and internet connection. On my old post, I wrote about a song titled "Jet Lag" by Simple Plan. It's about a couple and both of them separated by distance. And I do agree with "Tryin' to figure out the time zones makin’ me crazy". It drags me crazy as hell!

And today, we're in our 3 months. I hope we can be more than just chatting or webcamming or exchanging videos and songs. I wanna hear his voice for real. I wanna see his face for real. I hope we can hold each other hands as we walk together. I hope we can last forever. But wait, nothing last forever! Yea, at least for thousand year perhaps :p

I already had a great year. I learn many things from it. I'm grateful. I hope 2012 will be greater, better, and more amazing. Amen :*

p.s : Tell me when I wrote a wrong words.